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Wednesday, February 13th, 2002

Time:7:20 pm.
I've been informed that I am avoiding most of you out there in the world... Go figure, sorry felt rather much like most of you wanted me away, but wait this is not a pity plea, it's an explanation. I'm sorry if I have been avoiding you guys, I just don;t get around very well without a vehicle, and I am staying with Todd, but we only have a cell phone for a phone, and I have to ask him for the number, which I did give to Mage if anyone needed me. Just what can I do to not avoid you guys? I call Allan from time to time, but even if I leave a message it seems like he never answers, John the only way I have to talk to you is by computer, which I don't have access too most of the time, or to come and see you, which again the no car thing does come inbetween ( I know I could ask Mage for your number, but I felt if you wanted me to have it you would have given it to me). I miss you guys all of you, but I needed some time to breathe and to get my head straight. I miss you guys, I really do, but how do we fix things eh? I feel like the circle is broken. Maybe we are not supposed to fix it this time, kind of the feeling I got. Al you have Megan and have a lot of planning to do, and I don;t know how much time that is going to leave you with, And John you have a whole new life you have to attend to. I just don;t see alot of room in there anymore. Tommorow I Am going to Call Cecilia and see where things go from there. I told her Kayleigh would always be a part of my life no matter what, I may not be able to make a life with Cecilia. But I owe it to her, and to me to try. I hope I did not make any of you worry, I just did not feel welcome, and I don;t think it was you guys, I think for a bit I did not feel welcome anywhere. Getting my birthday presents of seeing a sunrise over both the mountains and the ocean fullfilled the last requirements for putting my mind to ease it seems. And I think I may have gotten a job whenever I get my car back @ CDO doing RMAs, which I have been told is the most boring job in the world, but it can't be any more boring than not having a job at all. This is me Signing off. I take all of the blame, catch me on the flipside... If you can

P.S. I am getting ready to run a changeling game soon, any ideas of who would want to play and what night would be goode?
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Friday, February 1st, 2002

Time:6:18 am.
Clarity what a wonderful thing. I can think for the first time in months. I don't feel like my head is full of broken crystal, it does not get distracting every time I think because of all of the tinkling. Enough of that. I get to move today. Not my favorite thing in the world but it is something I have gotten to be an expert on during my life. Hopefully this move will be very very very temporary. Not so much moving as couch surfing. Have a place to store most of my gear which is goode. Talked to Cecilia the other day... I'll post the resulting 4 pages of writing when I get my notebook back, if anyone is interested. And John, I will try to get with you on sat. to take care of the books, sorry would have done it another time this week, but I can't call you (Never have given me the number) and I won't have my car back until this afternoon or tomorrow. Well enough babbling guys, just wanted to post to let you know I was alive. Also thanks for worrying about me those of you who did. I think I will be ok now.- Jas
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Saturday, January 5th, 2002

Time:10:49 pm.
For all of you LJ and fantasm addicts out there you might find this post to be intresting...Heaven
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Monday, December 31st, 2001

Time:2:02 am.

Take the What Should Your New Year's Resolution Be? Quiz

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Wednesday, December 26th, 2001

Time:12:37 am.
WElll I suvived another christmas guys. Not my favorite christmas. But my firs one that I have had NO contact from my family. guess that shos me how much they love me. And yes I know some of you like om and Ash rad this. But you could have at least called me and I would have felt better. Thanks guys. Jas
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Sunday, December 16th, 2001

Time:4:37 pm.
I healed a wound last night, and continuity is strting to return o my life, it is making me a much happier person.Just wanted to let everyone knw that I am ok, and that I'm sorry I have been lashing out like a child, but I have had alot of stress lately,but I am feeling alot better now, and my continuity is returning. May all of your paths be ever green and golden ntil we all meet again. Also Rhia darling, we are comming up right after christmas to get you for New Years. Everyone summon together. We are having a Grand Conclave.
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Thursday, December 13th, 2001

Time:7:31 pm.
It almost seems like I came out of a daze into a mess. That is what everything has felt like for the last few weeks. A huge nasty mess. I think everyone is probably pretty pisy at me for disappearing for days at a time, but hey I've been depressed and so has everyone else even if they have been covering it with high drama. I guess everyone forgets that we all get this way every winter. I just feel like there is a whole lot of bull crap going on that does not really matter, and that everyone just clings to it so they can have something to feel. It seems to me everyone feels pretty dead or empty, even with our loved ones. So we take turns striking out at each other cursing and nit picking at each others little faults. Hell guys we all have our faults so get over it. Friendship is about forgiving and helping when you can. We would be alot happier if everyone would shut their fucking mouths. Yes that even means me, but hey someone had to say it instead of being a child and striking out at every little things because we are in bad moods. So if any of you would like to stop being all high and mighty, feel free to seek me out.- Jas
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Wednesday, December 12th, 2001

Time:5:27 pm.
I'm alive, and I guess I will go to the dopctor tommorow. Falling out of the truck was bad. Ph# 864-232-4007
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Friday, November 30th, 2001

Time:3:07 pm.

If I was a James Bond villain, I would be Francisco Scaramanga.

I enjoy good food, monopolising the world's energy supplies, and sex before assassinating people.

I am played by Christopher Lee in The Man with the Golden Gun.

Who would you be? James Bond Villain Personality Test

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Thursday, November 29th, 2001

Time:2:03 am.
Well I felt kind of like gaming tonight, but I had no gas and the phone is not working. Well as it got later and I got more irked, I decided me gaming tonight was not that goode of an idea. sorry guys, I did not flake ouyt, but I was in a bad humor, just wanted to let you know so you would not be as upset.
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Saturday, November 24th, 2001

Time:8:04 pm.
60% - 70% (Trench Coat Mafia)

Angry, venemous, vitriolic, hurt and mentally unhinged.
You know where dad keeps the guns and the list of those who're going to get it is not only long, but half the names have already been crossed off.
Not to be fucked with.

Take the DeathKiddy Test!

Not that funny really, but this is by far one of the funniest tests I have taken to date.
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Friday, November 16th, 2001

Time:6:13 pm.
If I was an Autobot, I'd be:

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Time:5:52 pm.
Ever hear of a Meme? Click hereto see more on Meme often seen on live Journal some reason this link only sometimes works
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Time:2:25 pm.
Ok this is a what if situation. The world will be over in 10 minutes, and some how you know this. What would you do. there will be no repercussions for anything you do, because the world is about to end...
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Wednesday, November 14th, 2001

Time:4:39 am.
I wonder if this is Random or not...

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Monday, November 12th, 2001

Time:5:01 am.
Well I'm not going crazy. after the Twins conversation, working on HTML seems pretty easy. Finished most of the AMV page. All that remains to be done is uploading 6 more CDs of AMVs. I dread that. But hey I'll get it done. check out Shadow Haven. and if you would like to help by uploading a Cd or two for me, or have something I don;t have listed, let me know, ok? -Jas
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Saturday, November 10th, 2001

Time:11:54 am.
*comes in from talking to Cecilia* It might be twins. WoW err ummm. uhhhh. Oh shit Twin Daughters, in almost perfect synchonicity... I'll find out in 2 weeks. Doctor thinks it might be twins. Really I am so shocked...
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Time:12:28 am.
Your Viking Name is...
J�surr Oxlegs
Your Viking Personality: You're a fearsome Viking, but you aren't completely uncivilized. The other Vikings make fun of you for that. You have a thirst for battle, and tend to strike first and think later. As a Viking, you're one of the "berserkers", and rush into battle with no clothes on. If the sight of you naked isn't enough to disable the enemy, your sword certainly will be.

You might grumble a bit at the lack of amenities on board a Viking longboat, but you can handle it. You possess some skills which other Vikings respect.

You have a fairly pragmatic attitude towards life, and tend not to expend effort in areas where it would be wasted. Due to your gregariousness, you don't strike fear into the hearts of your victims. Try to be a little more surly in the future.

Viking Name Test
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Friday, November 9th, 2001

Time:11:16 pm.
I'm having a weird night tonight. One of those nights of no direction, where you just kinda float somewhere between reality and dreaming. I find myself hitting random alot tonite, reading other people's lives, it's alot like dreamwalking, slipping lightly over the edge of people's dreams, seeing so little, but understanding so much more tahn should be possible. Some of these people probably will think I am crazy for replying to their posts, but maybe they will think of me as that little voice on the wind that sometimes replies to what you are thinking. maybe I can call the modd I am in Extrovertive, or some such. Hrmmmm I think I will gaze about some more now. May your paths be ever green and golden.
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Monday, November 5th, 2001

Time:1:10 am.
As John Said "I fucking hate drama" Period. No exceptions. Once i loved Drama, even started my share. Al, remember high school is all about Drama. Remember " fuck all that HIGH SCHOOL DRAMA bull shit" Just beh on everyone's drama, I hate it when people cause more drama while trying to escape or stop more. Beh.
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